Four years

When we were in school, we are soft, weak and innocent and I can feel the transformation in myself during these final moths of my college l months of my college days. The day I entered these huge gates it felt the same as Harry potter felt when he entered the gates of the great Hogwarts School. When I came here my sole purpose was to complete my degree and leave without being associated with people around me. Eventually, as time passed I started adapting to my surrounding, both good and bad. But, contrary to my purpose this voyage made me meet many people. All of those were like medicines which came with an expiry date. In the initial days I was very hesitant .For me the definition of friendship was unconditional companion through thick and thin, but my definition seemed to be a little inconsistent with that of my peers. For them friendship was companionship but only through sunny days but not through the cold winter days of their “FRIEND’S” life. I saw and treated every person I met with my definition of friendship. As time passed and we reached our second semester, when I saw my batch mates a certain feeling got induced in me which made me to believe that for an existence at amity all that was needed was a group to be associated with. But this ideology was never apt for my then puzzled life, this was the time when I carried my own emotional baggage and was trying to sort out my life. I persistently circled around the physiology block like a bear in search of honey. But this entire venture went in vain for me , my thirst of finding answers was not , all the efforts were fruitless for me .

After this Eventually I developed certain feelings for a girl and also the distance between me my family increased with time and both the situations were a source of constant brain storming for me .After the second semester when went back, my father met with a very unfortunate and fatal accident and to get things under my control and reduce the effect of the damage cost to me and my family, I pushed myself to a limit which I had never dreamed or imagined to reach. But when I came back to amity, I returned damaged .When I came back I just had one hope in my heart that I would again be with my friends and their companionship would help me mitigate the damage that I had suffered .But contrary to my expectation and hopes I did not receive the response I was desirous of, every one backed out.

After that, I tried to immerse myself in other but all I could surround by was the ghosts of my past and the only scene that revolved before my eyes was of the hospital where I saw all the blood & needles.

As the end of forth semester came near I isolated myself from my batch and started living with M.Sc. students. Slowly  and steadily after all the scars of my past I started to reboot myself .Then I happened to meet a person who had similar interest as mine he also could not sleep through nights so we started roaming around sector 126 and Amity all through the night .

During my fifth and sixth semester I happen to meet a person who was opposite to me in every possible sense, but with that person the ability to make decisions became very easy and I was able to see feasibility in my decisions.

After meeting this person I realized that what all that had happened to me had happened for a reason. We were opposites, I was fire and she was water.

After that things changed, I have people who cared for me more than I care for myself. I looked for new opportunities and worked for them with everything, I put in all my energy and resources to achieve what I always wanted. I got sponsorships for Amity Youth Fest, became a co-founder in a manpower company and found the answers I was looking for. Though tough times were there with me through all this time as well, like before, but through my will I learnt to overcome it. Now I have people in whom I can bestow my trust and for whom I wish to sacrifice and give it all.

So, this journey at Amity was full of ups as high as Everest and lows as low as Marina trench, but overall it was a great learning experience. I thank everyone who was a part of it.

 Varun Chaturvedi

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